The passing of time

Dear Lord it's slow, so very slow...

The big problem (for me) with this pregnancy lark is that there are days and weeks when time passes almost in a blur, when it's busy at work and if we have a couple of evenings where we need to do bits & pieces it seems to gallop by.

And then are the days and weeks where time stretches out like something from a sci-fi movie and minutes last for hours. I've never been a hugely patient bloke, I do like things to happen now, now, now but even so...

I think the majority of the problem comes from the fact we lost Matthew at 22 weeks, it makes it incredibly difficult to settle into the pregnancy routine when there's constantly that hurdle in front of us and sometimes it does feel like the whole process is a series of hurdles - initial IVF treatment, then two weeks to the pregnancy test, then six weeks to the first scan, then 12 weeks, 20 weeks, 22 weeks, 30 weeks etc etc etc.

There seem to be a lot of "wise" people whose advice to couples expecting babies is to just sit back and enjoy the pregnancy and sadly, for us, I don't think that's ever going to be possible.

We will, however, take the frustration and the worry and impatience as it's all part of havign the children in the first place - it just means when they do finally arrive, it'll be all the sweeter :)